Saturday, June 03, 2017

Three Months to Live

What would you do if you had three months to live? Seems to me she's pretty low now and it will only go down from here. Sigh - note to self, "keep this one in your prayers".

Behold, the prognosis for my absolutely loving example of a human being in a cousin, Barbara. From her example I learned the importance of demonstrating kindness. As in, don't just be nice, do nice. She learned this from her mother, my best mentor, Aunt Agnes. The gifts I received from this aunt are too numerous to list. I'm broken hearted at the realization that I have three months to speak to her before she is gone from this world. What the hell am I supposed to say now?

Somewhere in me the answer lies in keeping those examples and ideals alive. Practicing the kindness I accuse her of being (trust me, she's difficult too - took her over a year to get back to me once). Spread the love I was so fortunate to receive. Remain steadfast in my worthy vision with peace in my heart. And, never stop reading and learning - that one from my aunt.

So many beautiful memories. Her father, Richard, died when I was a baby. He was my godfather. It just occurred to me - Barbara was so good to me, she must have taken over his role.

I love to think of her being welcomed into the arms of her parents. I'm sure they're waiting.

As for me, Yog sang it best:

https://youtu.be/8Ed5xP_9FoY


1 comment:

M. Teri Larbi said...

I wrote this and couldn't post. Barbara died May 20th. She was told she had three months to live, she did it in under a month - so strong was the draw....smart girl. She's closer now that ever.