St. Valentine's Day
Dreaded day for those that are single....
So we're in church and I hear the story of St. Valentine. Apparently he'd been put in jail for his beliefs and kept there for quite a while because he was pretty adamant about those beliefs (or he could have just been stubborn - like me).
Anyway, as the story goes a prison guard comes to him and brings him his sick daughter. He says to St. Valentine something to the effect of "please perform a miracle and cure my sick daughter, oh and by the way, you're going to die tomorrow".
St. Valentine, ever the cooperative fellow proceeds to cure his daughter.....and.....was killed the following day.
There it is folks - THAT is what we're celebrating. Makes me feel more loving.....
This is first time in a long time that I was totally alone for the holiday. It brought with it so much anxiety - which, quite frankly, is driving me totally nuts. So far I have not been the most lucky person in "love". What makes me think I'll do any different now.
To stave off the inevitable - I arranged an evening that was going to provide me what I felt would be the most loving thing I could do for myself....
I recognize that I have it all - NOW.
The reason I can have a healthy relationship is because I am finally ready to allow it to exist.
And so it is.....